Saturday afternoon

Ok, so I didn't exactly write down everything I ate, but I meant to!! I'll try again this coming week. I did do something amazing today, though. Ready? Hold your breath...

...I walked for almost 1 1/4 hours - 4.4 miles!!! I could hardly believe it. At the beginning of the walk my right knee hurt, my plantar faciitis hurt (left foot), even my Morton's neuroma on the bottom of my right foot hurt. I kept going, though, and they all sort of dissipated. Well, my knee still hurt some, and I had to walk a little gingerly, but I did it. 

A friend and I are going to walk the Boulder Boulder on Memorial day. It is a 10k, and most people run, but we're going to walk. You just have to be able to do it in under 2 hours. After today's walk, I'm certain I can do that!

I was so excited. I'll have to see how my ailments feel tonight and tomorrow, but at least now I know I am physically able. Tim told me I was, and he was right. This has also given me renewed motivation to get in better shape before that event. If I walk a couple of times a week, that will help a lot. If I get on my bike and ride some, too - even better! If I say "no!" to French fries for a week, I'll really be on my way! I think I'm feeling better today. 

If I can walk for over an hour, maybe this weight loss thing can really be done after all!

Monday's food (hold your breath)

Can I make excuses? Ok, so my head basically exploded off my neck, and I seemed to lose all control!! To make that worse, I had to drive around trying to get Phil's laptop to connect to WiFi I knew was there so I could e-file my taxes. I got the Carl's Jr. while doing that. Needless to say, I gave up on the taxes. Tim will just have to do it today. I'll eat better today...

b'fast

1 pc bread w/ butter

1 1/2 c. milk with Ovaltine

lunch

part of Carl's Jr. taco salad

part of Carl's Jr. grilled chicken sand

1 order of fried zucchini

snack

1 c grapes

dinner

2 guac, veg, lettuce wraps in tortillas

1 big cookie

My Love, my All

I was very moved in a pre Easter service at church today. We were "experiencing the cross", and part of the process was to reflect on our sins (many!) and nail them to the cross before communion and then praise & celebration. So one of my big ones, the biggest I'd say, is gluttony and I believe it has contributed so much to my weight gain. During the praise time, they played the song Wonderous Cross, and the final lines of the song SCREAMED out at me (don't you love it when that happens?), b/c of what Jesus did on the cross, it "demands my soul, my love, my all". I thought to myself, I gave my soul already. But how shallow and sad that I don't always give my love and my all (or even an effort, come on Julie!) to address the sin that I still allow in my life. I was so moved and inspired! I really hope to remember this as a banner when the Lord got my attention and personalized my sin for me where I could see it, and be ready to repent. Does this make any sense to you? Maybe it was just my day at church....

One day

Yes! I started yesterday with a bowl of cereal, thinking about what I would eat the rest of the day. I wrote it in my food tracker. Ok, so I ate too many cookies at a meeting we attended, and didn't get in quite enough fruit, but I had one good day! I'm totally going to count that as a win! Yeah!!!

Picture This!

Hey! I was just reading my Oprah magazine, and just came across one of the best diet ideas I've ever seen. Take a picture of absolutely EVERYTHING you put in your mouth! It's even worse than journaling, because you have to look at the huge portions and unhealthy choices! One lady in the article said "like I'd want to take a picture of a jumbo bag of M &Ms!" The point being she'd rather not put it in her mouth if she has to digitally record it! I was blown away, and I even thought of taking it one step further and sharing it with a diet partner (Like you :) ) occasionally. This might work, in fact I'm certain it would change my behaivor for a while!

Isn't that crazy? Think about how we could implement this if you want. You might just start getting some funny photos from me, b/c I need to something radical like this to get motivated again!

On the move

Well, I can't seem to eat right, but I'm moving more! I took one walk last week, and have 2 scheduled this week. I'm not exactly hammering - my knee won't allow it - but I'm walking for an hour or so. That feels good. I'm very glad to be doing it. It is making me want to get on my bike, and that is a very good thing. 

I'm going to keep working on eating better. I'm going to keep my head above water. I am not going to give up. Your success is going to encourage me to do better!

Talk this week? I miss you! Love you!

Discouraged!

My dear friend, after that one good day, I've blown it each day since! Can't seem to get on the horse and stay on. But...as soon as I sign off here I'm going to go write out menus and meal choices for the next 7 days. I hope thinking it out ahead of time will give me a better focus. Sometimes I need very clear boundaries. I'm trying to not be discouraged. I can think of this as a long-term process. It has taken me a long time to develop these bad habits, so I guess I can't expect to break them right away. 

I love that we're doing this together. I will try to take a look at my recipes and send you low-fat ones. I have some very good ones!

Meanwhile, I'll do some meal planning, grocery shopping, and hope to have a good report to give later this week. I already have one hike planned with a friend. That, at least, is progress.